I hesitate to blog about this because I do not want to be disrespectful in any way but I feel its something that needs to be shared.
One of my neighbors killed herself a few days ago and our neighborhood is in a state of shock. We have lived beside each other for almost seventeen years. I am ashamed to say that I did not know her very well. We spoke when we ran into each other which wasn't often. She had a dry sense of humor that I loved and was always willing to lend a helping hand if you needed anything. She seemed so tough and capable.
What drives a person to make such an irreversible decision to end themselves? I know that everyone experiences bad times and some much more than others. I cannot imagine the agony of the loss of a child that my mother has lived through or the devastation of losing all that you own in a natural disaster or even the crushing loneliness someone must feel at times when they have no family to lean on. I can only guess at how dark and terrible the world must seem in the absence of all hope.
I look around me and I am thankful to the bottom of my soul for my family and friends.
You give me hope that shines in the darkest places.